I'm accepting the fact that the world I live in will always let me down.

Fear

What never happens, is most important.

What we don't do, speaks volumes against the tiny things we do. Every characteristic that makes up who we are means nothing against what we aren't. It is much easier to describe what doesn't describe us.

Traits that we don't like about ourselves describe us. Focus on what you aren't.
Nobody cares about who you are, what you've done, where you've been. What matters is who you aren't, what you haven't done, and where you've never been.

If you want to find out who someone really is, find out what they aren't. Because what we aren't is controlled by fear, and fear defines who we are. Who we really are.

What you do makes you a statistic, what you don't do defines you.

I have so much to say, but nothing to write about.

Compensation

The next time a man holds the door open for you, know it is because he is trying to make up for something horrible he has done.


Everything we do is to compensate for something else. Every good trait we fake; we pretend to have, is to black out the truth of what we've done. Mask upon mask. Business men that surround themselves with sports cars, Italian suits, and a luxurious apartment are constantly trying to convince themselves that they are not alone. Not alone from taking advantage of so many people, not alone from cheating their way to the top, not alone from ignoring everything real and focusing on work all the time. Neglecting the family that doesn't exist. And never will.


We are all this business man. To what degree is the only difference. Every small favor, every minute act of humility, every single shred of compassion is to counteract what we've done in the past. Balance through compensation. Metaphysics 101. Know that the next time someone picks up the pencil you've dropped, it's a balancing act.


We must constantly buy these things, and perform these actions to try to convince ourselves that we've changed. Pat yourself on the back for every good deed you do, thinking it will be the last. Hoping to live the rest of your life balanced. This is what we tell ourselves.


Constantly lying to ourselves.
Constantly in balance.


Constantly imbalanced.

Truth

Nothing is more honest than a man who is at the bottom of himself. A man who sees what could have been. A man that has lost everything. A man that has destroyed himself, with what he has become. A man on his knees with nowhere to look. You will never know yourself as well as this man.


We define ourselves by what we do and what we have. We hide behind things that mean nothing. When these things are taken away, we are left with nothing but ourselves. Nobody wants to know the truth.

Historians

There is an evil tyrant that we have ignored for so long. I say ignore as if we had a chance to choose. The tyrant is a victor and the victor writes the history books.

Right?

We can only believe what we are told. You learn the side that the victor wants you to know. Forget the other side. The history books that spoke of the other side were burned at the stake long ago along with the people who didn't believe. So you better believe the history books.


The greatest trick the Devil ever pulled was convincing the world he didn't exist.


Now take that to the next level.
People worshiping the Devil.
Dying for the Devil.
Killing for the Devil.


Murdering anyone who doesn't believe in the Devil. Anyone who hasn't accepted the Devil as their personal lord and savior. The killing is justified because it's in the name of the Devil.


This tyrant has a cult of blood thirsty followers. Yet we don't recognize this as a threat. Because the tyrant writes the history books. I hope reading this fills you with disgust. I hope this drives you to fight against this tyrant. We sit complacently as more non-believers die. Everyone else that has an unorthodox belief is slain. The goal is a world in which everyone can unite in a common belief and finally live together peacefully. I'm not speaking of the Holocaust. This is much worse than that. The Holocaust only lasted for a few years. This tyrant has been in command for thousands of years.


When you hear that these people are doing this all for the Devil, you cringe with distaste. You wish these sick individuals would die off so that their forceful views would no longer oppress innocent people. You may also be wondering why you've never heard of these sadistic murderers who have supposedly ruled the world for years.


The tyrant writes the history books.


Killing isn't justified because it's in the name of the Devil.

Right?

It's terrible, it's a disgrace to this world that people take things to such extremes and so many lives have to be lost. Why hasn't anyone done something about this?


All we can do is read the history books that have been written for us.


As you're sitting there, judging these horrible, horrible people, shaking your head, sighing at the fact that these people exist, I want you to do something for me.


Close your eyes.

Take a step back and realize how hypocritical you really are.


Whether its in the name of the Devil or God, extremism is our biggest mistake. At the end of the day, thousands are still dead that were never given the chance to choose, the chance to live. Hold beliefs close to your heart but don't dare be hypocritical. Hypocrisy has plagued our history. For every instance in which I previously spoke of the Devil, replace his name with that of God and reread it.




Take a step back, a deep breath, and realize how hypocritical you really are.





Now open your eyes.

Gypsy

I guess you could say that I'm lucky.


I have access to something that not many people do.


People pay to know what I know.


And I'm doing everything to erase what I know....


I can see the future. My future at least. I've seen it my whole life. It resides in the back room of my home. Safe behind barricades. Safe in it's own mind. Safe in a way that is dangerous to one's close to it.

My future stares me in the face. It wakes me up in the morning. My future used to say that I'd amount to nothing. It used to call me a zero. Sometimes people claim to be blindsided by their future; I saw the hit coming from a mile away.


Our birth is a mistake we'll spend our entire lives trying to fix.


People always try to run from their future. Try living with it. Every vice that your future has, you know is destined to become yours someday. And you can't fuck with destiny. With all the good your future holds, comes the bad. Pandora's Box in reverse. I've studied my future, and I've studied myself, and I am sure they are one in the same.


Fuck destiny.


I wish I could be blindsided by my future so I wouldn't have to watch it creep up on me, every second of every day. I wish this could all be a big shock to me.



If you become what you fear, and you fear what you become, what does that make you?