Gypsy

I guess you could say that I'm lucky.


I have access to something that not many people do.


People pay to know what I know.


And I'm doing everything to erase what I know....


I can see the future. My future at least. I've seen it my whole life. It resides in the back room of my home. Safe behind barricades. Safe in it's own mind. Safe in a way that is dangerous to one's close to it.

My future stares me in the face. It wakes me up in the morning. My future used to say that I'd amount to nothing. It used to call me a zero. Sometimes people claim to be blindsided by their future; I saw the hit coming from a mile away.


Our birth is a mistake we'll spend our entire lives trying to fix.


People always try to run from their future. Try living with it. Every vice that your future has, you know is destined to become yours someday. And you can't fuck with destiny. With all the good your future holds, comes the bad. Pandora's Box in reverse. I've studied my future, and I've studied myself, and I am sure they are one in the same.


Fuck destiny.


I wish I could be blindsided by my future so I wouldn't have to watch it creep up on me, every second of every day. I wish this could all be a big shock to me.



If you become what you fear, and you fear what you become, what does that make you?